Okay, so I've been dying, literally dying to write lately but I need to feel inspired when I write. While I was driven, I lacked inspiration. However, I felt the words building within my body, desiring to fall into perfect symphony with the others, desiring to flow from within my mind, desiring to express everything I felt but couldn't capture on paper. Before I knew it, the words were coming out. Like a neuron passing through a synapse, the words passed from the depths of my brain into the tips of my rapidly moving fingers. Also, I would just like to say thank you to a new friend who stopped for a few minutes and asked me a few simple questions about my future. He helped me find my muse and encouraged me to write what I had told him down somewhere. I can't promise that this will be good, I haven't written in a while. But one thing I can promise: I will give you ME, 100% purely Karina Acevedo. Here goes nothing...
"You wanna join the Air Force for real?" This wouldn't be the fist time I've been asked this question and undoubtedly not the last. Is it because I'm a girl? Is it because I'm only 15? Is it because I don't wear a tight bun on the crown of my head, camo clothes, and look like a tomboy? I don't know why people always seem to ask the "for real" part, but strangely enough, I don't mind. I love when people ask me about my yearning and paramount attraction to the Air Force. I love answering, I love talking about it, I love feeling my insides rush at the mere idea of representing my country and protecting my home. I love it all. When we were little, we were asked, "What do you wanna be when you grow up?" Answers usually were "a pretty princess, a basketball player, baseball player, a boxer, a mommy, a barbie, a model, an actor, an actress," what was mine? Mine varied from time to time; but only between two options. A lawyer and a soldier. I do really want to be in the Air Force. I guess a better answer would be, I don't just want to be in the Air Force, I WILL BE in the Air Force.
Where did my thirst for adventure, valor, self-declaration, and accomplishment come from? It's a family tradition with the men in my family. My father is in the Air Force, his brother is too, and so is my mom's uncle. Sadly though, after my dad and uncles, there is no male who will carry it on. God KNOWS my male cousins won't do it. One wants to be an accountant and the other an actor. My sister is only seven but I doubt that she'll want to take the path leading to the Air Force. Plus, I LOVE it ♥ If there is ANYTHING I want in life, I want that. More than marriage, more than kids, more than fortune. I just love the excitement, the moving, the thrill, the challenge, I can keep going, but I won't or this will turn into a novel lol.
What makes a person so bent on doing anything, nevertheless joining the Air Force? Passion, commitment, pressure, love, trust, or pure, simplistic,uncomplicated naïveness? I might be naïve, but I don't think it's pure, simplistic, uncomplicated naïveness. I believe it's pure, simplistic, uncomplicated passion, commitment, and love. Who knows what is in store for me? But at the same time, who knows what is in store for you? Will you get older and fulfill your lifelong goals? Will you be inspired by this blog and find something that can be just as important to you? My mom once gave me a piece of advice, "follow your heart, do what makes you happy". Ignore those who try to bring you down because in the end, when you succumb to peer pressure, you're the one who is going to have to wake up every morning asking yourself 'what if I would have done it? Where would I be now?' Try. Try whatever you want and if you find that it doesn't make you happy, if you find yourself waking up in the morning asking yourself why, then move on. But at least you will know that you didn't do it because you chose not to, not because you let society choose for you.
So I leave you with this, be your own guide. Don't neglect the righteous words of that
little voice inside your head. Think hard through your decisions as amongst the good advice dwells the bad: fear, misery, and paranoia. Follow your heart, your heart is pure, honest, and solid. Be what you want to be and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Lead yourself, be someone you would be proud to know. Be someone you would want your children to look up to. Be someone worth remembering. Be someone worth loving. But better yet, be someone who wakes up in the morning able to say "This is me. Take it or leave it. I'm not changing and I'm proud of who I am and what I have become."
Love Always,
soldiergrl94 (:
